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Wednesday, November 29, 2006 { 6:47 AM }

i did something that made me very happy. i went swimming! heheex. and what a great accomplishment(: i'm proud of myself. lalala~ although i didnt swim a lot, but at least i've made the effort to go there. like see, normally i hate swimming lessons, and will fabricate all kinds of excuses to run away from it..but today, i told my mom i want to go swimming. isnt that suprising? ok..i swam 10 laps of breast stroke, about 6 laps of free style. and guess what? i saw a woman there who've got nice muscles. i mean nice. real nice ones. i envy her man..i also want those nice muscles. i'm going to exercise extra hard during this holidays. work hard, play hard AND exercise equally hard(: that's my motto! waay to go man! i feel unwell now. it's like i think i'm down with feaver. my body feels warm and i've got a bit of headach. just now i feel damn weak all of a sudden. and i'm cold. as in i feel really cold but i'm hot. paradox. my mom is watching some stupid ants horry movie. i hate ants. that show has a a picture of a lot of ants on the cover. and the ants were shown biting someone until they bleed and slowly die. it's like the ants can eat people up. and those ants, guess what they look like? they look exactly like those fat and big ants in pulau ubin. i'm scared of them le lar..later they bite bite bite then got blood then how?? how? i hate ants! i hate ants!!! i still remember the ant in pulau ubin whose ass got stuck. then the other ants were like trying to help it, but to no avail. haha. serve them right for doing mean things..HAHAS.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006 { 6:00 AM }

i changed my blogskin yesterday(: nice one isnt it? the colours all blend very nicely. holidays are boring. i miss those days in school..i miss it really really much. nowadays keep building castle in the air. but i cant help it, because there's really too little thing to do. and i'm going swimming tomorrow! next year is going to come ever so quickly. and now..it's like we in for o levels next year..how how how? why am i always so paranoid. scared this, scared that..then later scared what this thing will turn out bad that thing will turn out worse. SIANZ!!!!!!!
i love you, you love me, we are one big family with a great big heart and a kiss from me to you, once you say you love me too..
twinkle twinkle little star, how i wonder what you are? up above the world so high, like a diamond in the sky, twinkle twinkle little start, how i wonder what you are?
suddenly i feel like i am back to my childhood days..arhh!!! i miss you so much..my friends and all..but now. it's like we've all lost contacts and i guess even if i walk past someone who was once my classmate, i wont even know! it's funny how people come and go so quickly..sometimes not leaving any trace at all..the feelings just start to wear out..it'll never always be there will it? maybe it's gone..but i still have it. or maybe i dont. i dont know..

Sunday, November 26, 2006 { 6:27 AM }

arghhhhhh!!! this fear is killing me. cant they just release that damn ass idiotic results earlier? i'm dying SOON! i guess for the whole of my holidays until the after i receive that result i'll be here worrying my hair out. how how how? seriously i'm very afraid. i'm afraid i wouldnt get a A for chinese le lar..and if i dont get a A, i wont be taking hcl next year..then my language will have to depend on like english, which is like HOPELESS! how how how? i really want to get it. i want i want i want..haiz. sorry for calling it an ass..and caling it idiotic. but i'm really very scared. ok..if i get an A, then that will be totally different. i'm one step nearer to my dream. and that dream school of mine. i really want to go NJC! heheex. my dream school. lalala! but again, i doubt i can go there. my chinese now already got problem le. i think i screwed it all up! i think now the only person who can help me is..God. but..i believe in him..you will help me de..wont you??

Thursday, November 23, 2006 { 7:14 AM }

i was surfing the net when i suddenly thought of this song..it's a song that will cheer people up. i remember it was like p5 when i went for that dont know how many school joint prefectorial camp that i came across and got to know it. after that i went everywhere trying to find it. this cd is one that is hard to find. at that time that is. becuz i believe it's a theme song for some movie.

IF WE HOLD ON TOGETHER
Don't lose your way with each passing day
You've come so far, don't throw it away
Live believing, dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story, Faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heart
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by, for you and I
Souls in the wind must learn how to bend
Seek out a star, hold on till the end
Valley, mountain, there is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Worlds are swaying, someone is praying
Please let them come home to stay
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by, for you and I
When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark, we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts ? Everyone
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by, for you and I

Sunday, November 19, 2006 { 7:01 AM }

on friday, i went somewhere. let me indicate it with an unknown X. X is a place i often feel lonely. i cant remember when all these started, but it just seemed to be there right from the very start. it's scary i cant even find out when it all happened and when this feelings evolved. it used to be love, but now..it became hate, scared, worried and a little tired. all of a sudden, those people there became very strange. i look as though i'm invisible. i wondered right that instant, am i dead or what? i suddenly feel so..transparent. maybe i became a soul and then nobody can feel me or see me..that's why everyone is treating me like that. i know..they can do without me. now i feel like someone useless..i know i may not be there for several occassions, but i've got reasons. people helped me cover this and that, but until now, i'm still treated as though i'm not there even though i'm back..i understand. i finally understood this phrase,"这个世界上，不会因为没有了某人而不行的" now i'm really feeling very tired. i might as well not go forever, anyways they dont need me. hahaas..thank you. thank you for making me feel as though i dont exist. aint we suppose to be a big family. nonono..i'm wrong. sorry. always given the rubbish..jobs that are so minor it can be forgotten. if you think you know what X is, i'm afraid you dont. dont assume anything..assumption is not good..if you look at me. because i keep assume things that are not happening. theodora..stop assuming already wake up form your dream and face reailty now! face it man! i'm not directing this to anyone..you people dont have to care about me. i'm just ranting..i'm carzy. i'm out of my mind. i know..
celebrated simin's birthday on friday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIMIN! hahaas. went to watch casino royale. that show is a little bit boring, but it's really very exciting. i finally borrowed that VCD- moments of love. that show..i love that show. maybe..maybe..day dream! hahaas. very sad..five different love stories happening in mongkok. that show is really nice..nice! nice! nice! but the last part..it's sad..it's hard to love someone. it's really very hard.

Sunday, November 12, 2006 { 11:56 PM }


since i havent blogged for like so long le..actualli not that long lar horh? i shall talk about meet the parents lar. unlike some people who got good results, i've get my parent to meet the teacher and have a talk with them. hai. the whole day i was like so worried..and couldnt sit properli. but what must come, must come..my mum soon reached school. then i was hoping she talk to huang instead of chan or p. but in the end..she talked to chan. the one i didnt want most. b4 this day..i was worried she would talk to her..but she became one of those meet the parent teachers for our class. i also dont understand why..how come arh? but she's ok lar. besides saying some things..but then on our way home..mom keep scolding..because chan said we like to discuss in class..you know what it means dont u. so now..for the whole holi..i'm staying at home and mug. hahaas. i wanna get good results! i like yong1 bao4 mei3 yi2 ke4 hua1 huo3! i wanna watch that movie lar.. that show is damn nice! actualli there's a lot of people inside this show..like wu2 zhuo2 xi1 and race..but i like these three the best! they very cute! esp the girl. i like her lar! and that guy on the left..he very cute!!! hahaas..i crazy de lar. i want this movie the cd!

Friday, November 03, 2006 { 3:43 AM }

i had camp yesterday. went to school at about 7 plus. met bi and cel at canteen at about 7.30. then we made our way to grand audi. we had our first briefing for the camp. they made us group ourselves into five and then prepare for the orienteering @ pulau ubin. dl, hm and it were the first group for the orienteering, so we had to pack our backpack and get ready for it. then they made us group ourselves into groups of eleven this time for the taking of boat. after which we took a bus to the changi terminal. then we moved onto the boats in our groups of eleven and made our way into ubin. there we had another briefing about what we should bring and what we should do. then we all walked to our starting point. everyone was in high spirit and some even sang songs. soon we set off onto our different routes. i think we took route three if i'm not wrong. the road to those stations were like long and tiring..the most memorable one was the very deserted one..then me and bi were like walking in front because cel, yingwei, sy and sharon wanted to buy some h20. then suddenly they came calling and walking very quickly. they shouted there was a dog following them. so funny. everyone was like so scared. then i was one of the ones who wasnt scared of dogs, so cel and me walked at the back. i was so afraid it might bite my butt. it's might..hahaas. but soon the dog didnt want to follow us. the last station was the most tiring one. we walked all the way in to find nothing. then there was one place where we walked into..then they said that place have wild boars, so we all had to make our way out. everyone was tired..so we rested at one pavillion where other groups also rested. cel couldnt make it back so she called for help. sharon and her took the van back in the end. then the van drove past me and bi..and they didnt pick us up. they could make up that we were unwell too..so inhumane. and i think the both of us were the last to make it back to the starting point. when we reached there, there already starting preparing for field cooking. the meal was delicious with chicken sausages..heheex. after eating we headed back to school. in school we had some scdf talk. the talk was like boring..altho the first part is ok. but the first part was rather gross with the blood and the dont know what. after the talk we had practical. some people were chosen to demo. and they vv funny. cuz keep spraying the dry ice extinguisher also cannot extinguish the fire..we had tea break after this. after the break we went for bathe. and the most luck thing of all is..we got the gym toilet! wahahas. that was like the happiest thingy of the day. we took turns to bath and everyone got a chance to bathe. after that was night games. np was incharge of conducting it..so we are the marshals! me and xueli took BN. and they were fun! what a great class. after that it's sleep time. we say wanna stay up the whole night and play cards..but then at about 1 plus got teacher make their rounds, so we all had to sleep. the floor was like so hard. how to sleep lehs?? then the classroom like so scary..but it's better than the solo night during ccl camp in sec one right? soon it's morning..then we all moved our bags to grand audi. there we had what stupid morning exercise. then we had our run. haiz..earlier morning i had pms lar. hahaas. but it didnt matter anyways. because soon we were dismissed. our class won the most "qi2 xin1" class! hahaas. way to go..!